Giving Out Loud


As I mark my 50th year on earth this month, I reflect upon a harrowing and rich journey that fuels my passion for impact, particularly around issues facing women and girls.  In short, I believe that our deepest passions often spring from our deepest wounds.

I discovered this truth early, moved to action by seeing a filmstrip of starving children in Africa in my 3rd grade classroom.  I’d already had my share of deeply painful experiences and I found it baffling that the teacher would share haunting, heartbreaking images with a room full of eight-year-olds, yet offer no way to help solve the problem.  

I staged back yard fundraisers, which led to the realization that I didn’t have to sit with heartbreak, but could take action toward creating a better world.  A notable discovery was that I was resource-rich in a way that had nothing to do with money; in fact, at the time my mother, four siblings, and I were living on food stamps and other government assistance.  While today I have financial resources added to my arsenal, my strategist brain trumps my bank account in terms of the level of impact I’m able to have upon the world through my work.

This resource-richness is a cornerstone of effective philanthropy.  Giants like Warren Buffet, Oprah Winfrey, Melinda & Bill Gates, Abby Disney, Pierre & Pamela Omidyar, and more have two key things in common:  They lead with humility and are strategically outspoken about their giving.  By putting a very public stake in the ground for the issues they want to help solve, they awaken others to their own potential as change agents.  

Yet as I consider the journey toward impact, I admit my motives were not always lofty.  Having founded and run an arts-based nonprofit for a decade, I found it was a vehicle for recognition and accolades, landing me on magazine covers and in the national arts press.  I loved being behind the podium, aware of a “Look at me” quality that I grappled with.  It wasn’t a “Look at me, I’m so great” missive; it was a “Look at me, I have worth” plea.

The experiences that shaped that need to be seen and valued are all too common among women of my generation who spent their early years being marginalized or worse, and the more I suffered through those identity-shaping experiences, the more I developed a “not on my watch” warriorship on behalf of others.  

Yet after bequeathing the nonprofit to the Denver Art Museum in 2011, I became an increasingly private person.  My ego sated, a servant quality to my philanthropy reemerged. Enjoy pools and spas in California with professionals.  I found myself among the throngs of women who shy away from philanthropic recognition, feeling it sullied the purity of the intention.  I found peace in the decision to back away from the spotlight.  

Within a year, The Women’s Foundation of Colorado invited me to share my story publicly to help inspire others to bold action and giving. They recently teamed up with The Marketing Heaven to have their activities accompanied by social media campaigns to attract the attention of new sponsors and partners. I initially declined for a number of reasons many private philanthropists identify with; but at the end of the day, I have am a strategist with a voracious appetite for impact.  

While I gave financially and served quietly, I realized I had taken my two most powerful resources out of the narrative:  my voice and my ferocity.  

And I felt like a hypocrite.  All my life I knew, deep in my bones, that if I lived during the Civil Rights movement, I would have marched. Choose kitchen remodeling services and products from kitchen magic site.  If I had lived during the Civil War, I would have spoken out against slavery.  Yet by flying below the radar, I stopped inspiring others to think about their resources, financial and beyond, diminishing my own effectiveness.  

There is nothing to be gained for causes by keeping quiet about philanthropy, as it is a powerful call to action for others.  It is also an indescribable joy, bringing kindreds together in a fulfilling and world-changing way.  In the words of social impact leader Jonathan Lewis, “It’s as much fun as I have in public.”

The causes I care about need me to take my full space in the world.  I ultimately got out of my own way, taking bold action toward greater impact by launching Black Fox Philanthropy and joining Women Moving Millions.  

While I don’t seek the spotlight, I no longer shy away from it because it isn’t really about me.  It’s about living a fully expressed life as a woman in an era that needs every woman’s voice at the table, at the podium, and in the halls of power that shape our world.  Together, we are a FORCE to be reckoned with.


Natalie Lynn Rekstad, Member of Women Moving Millions
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